Rough Stuff...

Yesterday was a difficult day in my world. We are in the middle of staff prep week, which means that it's time to start discussing and processing some of our junk with each other. So on top of being tired from staying up late into the evenings working on "atmosphere" stuff for the house, and sitting in the staff room for hours on end discussing ministry tools, plans for Project, etc...we got to sit down and work through our EQi's (emotional intelligence). Not as fun as it sounds. haha. Add to that emotional unpacking, yesterday I got a call that I did not get a job I thought I was perfect for and that was going to be perfect me...I didn't even get a formal interview. Needless to say I was incredibly frustrated. I was upset and that made me even more vulnerable...awesome... I definitely cried in my peer group EQi time because I was talking about the things I need to work on (assertiveness and self regard). Both those issues are the result of years and years of deep seated insecurities and having to go through all of those emotions in front of women I don't know super well...very difficult. But I survived and, aside from being tired after all the upheaval of yesterday, I am feeling pretty good. I'm looking forward to getting through staff prep week and the student's arrival on Saturday. Next week will be crazy and intense, but we have tomorrow off which is awesome. I think I'm going to waste some money on a pedicure because that makes me feel good...then I'll probably grab a book and go to City Park to just lay in the sun and relax..heavenly!!